What the hell?

Well, many points to address in this post. I guess I'll start with my first thoughts/questions and go on from there.

I was contemplating the other day, the idea of destiny and fate. It was shortly after watching an episode of The Crocodile Hunter where Steve and Terri had discussed the first time they met. To them, it was love at first sight. And when you look at the circumstances of their meeting, it is hard to see it as anything other than fate.

Now, me, being a girl, I want a boyfriend. I'm always bitching about how I'm lonely and whatnot and really, sometimes there's comfort only a guy can give. However, the interesting part is, that no matter how desperate I am, I can't stomach the thought going out with a random guy. I want a boyfriend, but if I think about going out with someone I dont really know (even if they are good looking) I get kinda weirded out. So I'm wondering, am I just nuts? Or is there a possibility that there's some fate going on here? Maybe I'm supposed to be single for a reason?

Or maybe I just have too much free time.

The other topic I'd like to bring into the open is communication with the dead. Yeah, I can hear the groans already. but I'm curious. After my mother died I started having dreams with her in them, and I dont know why, but I got a feeling that it was really her in those dreams, and not just my subconscious.

Now there's someone else in my dreams that's been coaching me and giving me instructions. Its almost creepy. If there's something I'm unsure about I'll discuss it with them in my dream and they will relay personal experiences. I also got a feeling from one of these dreams that I had to see a particular movie. I gleened enough that there was some kind of message that I needed to see in the movie. So I got the movie the next day, and low and behold, there was a fucking message in it, and one I needed to hear. Granted, it wasn't a blunt as "Hey, Lindsay" but somehow I knew there was some kind of communication going on.

Now, if you're following that, there's the influence. Lately, I've picked up the dreams/aspirations, goals and even most of the personality of this person that's been talking to me in my sleep. Even my sleep cycle is changing to fit theirs instead of mine. So what the hell is up with that? I even like different things now. Wishfull thinking? You tell me. If I didn't completely trust this person, I'd be freaked out. As it is, I'm honored.

Now that all that crap is out of the way, life is fine and boring. I've got set dates for volunteering at the Shy Wolf Sanctuary and I've sent in my application for the internship at the Central Florida Zoo. I've also been looking for jobs, and have very little luck. The little luck I have had got me an interview today with RadioShack. I'm going to be getting a call later for a secondary interview. Hopefully, it'll be a job. I need one. Or, my dad wants me to have one, so for my own health, I need to have one.

Fanfic writing has commenced full steam ahead. Hopefully I'll finish the stories I've started and begin some new ones along the way.

Otherwise, life is dull. I'll post more when something intersting happens.